Unhinging Myself

The last one month of my life had been the most swiveling in my 28 years of living. Finally, I managed to unhinged myself fully and dwell into the presence of this special guy in my life. I thought it appropriate to update my blog with this short and honest account of what had happened to me in the past 1 month.

I had been careful and cautious in guarding myself from indulging in a relationship. Meeting up with Marcus had been really, a very special and unique event in my life, which changed certain perspectives and shook my momentum completely, much to my delight. We started SMSing each other before I went for reservist on 02 Oct 2005 and met on the 20 Nov 2005. My first impression of him was only slightly different from what I've expected him to be in my mind.

I was open to friendship then and wasn't surprised that my dormant potential BF detector didn't go running off wild at the sight of him. We had a great chat and I found his personality and character to be almost exactly to what I've picture on MSN. After going out with him for a couple of time, I found myself deeply attracted to him. To use a few words to describe him, I would say these in its sequence and order of development : He's intelligent and witty, sincere and honest with his views, intensely connected and in tuned with the emotional and psychological aspects of himself and others, and humorous and "cutely" adorable. Not forgetin sensitive, mature, and yet having a childlike charm. Well, but I'll save the bad points to myself first :P .

It didn't take me long to decide on taking the plunge. I didn't know where all these were coming from and didn't know where we might head towards, but I figure I didn't want to wait too long to find out. I wanted to give it shot. It might or might not turn out well, but I guess we all reach that age where these things simply become of distant importance in our lives. We can't always have the whole cake and eat it. There's always the giving and taking of a little, here and there.. After going out with him for the past 2 or 3 weeks, I felt a part of me still hanging like a door spoilt on half its hinges. It was swiveling uncontrollably in an erratic manner against the wind. I was not moving on as I ought to. It finally changed today, and I'm off those hinges.

Today is to be our 1 month "meet up" anniversary. My friend Ken reminded me to buy chocolates for him, but I decided not to. I remembered him not being keen on keeping count of days past and marking anniversaries. I could be wrong about that. We went to a Thai Restaurant today and my... was I surprised! After finishing our main course I casually reminded him that today was our 1 month meet up anniversary. I was expecting a blank look and nothing much after. Instead, a waiter brought this Thai pudding thingie in a cup with a candle lit on it. Confused ... I thought openly to him "Eh.. you mean this restaurant serve desserts with candles ar? Where's yours?!" He said he told the waiter it was my birthday and got them to do it while I was at the washroom earlier. Woooh.... I felt my stomach twirl.. Not from the Tom Yum soup.. But from this most beautiful gesture anybody had done for me in years. I wanted to swallow the dessert.. cup and everything in it. He said, "This kind of things must share one. .cannot eat alone, all the luck will run out!" LOL.. isn't he sweet?! :P

Marcus struck the most beautiful chord in my life. I hope we can be together forever.

Semplice Simon