Soul mates and Companions

Everybody has their own definitions of what a soul mate and a companion is supposed to be. According to the dictionary, a soul mate is one whom you have a deep affinity to. Affinity would be a strong attraction which comes naturally to both parties. A companion would be a person who merely provides a physical presence and depicts one of a lower worth, maybe. How would we know who our soul mate would be? Would you want to spend your life with a companion? We all set requirements, standards and moulds to which we benchmark our peers to them. We measure them, size them up over time and gradually make a classification of their roles in our lives. A soul mate? Or simply a companion. We cannot make these decisions so early in our first encounter with that special someone, but as time passes, this process of categorization, kicks in subconsciously.

I do have my own idea of what a soul mate ought to be like. I sincerely think that there are many soul mates out there. People who I feel the strong bond of friendship and connection almost very quickly and naturally. There were also those that got themselves filtered out from the fleeting acquaintances and friends of superficiality, over a long period of time. In all them, I feel a strong affinity in them. To confide in them my deepest problems, my darkest fears, my truest self, and weakest struggles etc. I never had to fear them placing too quick a judgment on me, misunderstanding my point in a flash, and or simply not able to understand me. But alas! I can say there are not a lot of these people in my life. A few good juicy apples fill the whole stomach. It's better than to have a basket full of lousy ones.

The thing about soul mates is the fact that we want them to keep us companion for the rest of our lives. I cannot imagine spending my life with merely with someone who only provides a physical presence in my life and may never connect with the strong bond and affinity. I rather not have it. I cannot have someone who is my soul mate, and am not able to spend my life with him or her. It's inconceivably tragic! The last thing I want is for me to be merely a companion but is not able to be his or her soul mate. I rather not have it. It is not what I want either.

There are those who believe that there can only be one soul mate, and that they don't have to spend the lives together. Some believes they are the complete other half of their soul, and finding them would complete their life. But a soul is a soul, it belongs to us, the "mate" is an external party, and does not refer to another half of the same essence. Essentially, a soul mate is just another companion. Mate is synonymous with companion. Perhaps a bit nearer to our soul, but definitely not a torn away half.

This idea of soul mate is intrigues me very much, and it still sets me thinking what kind of role I am currently playing. The idea can be explored further. Would I be content playing companion? I don't think so. We all would like to improve ourselves and worth in another person's life. It takes time to come closer to each other's soul. It is a process and needs time to develop.

Semplice Simon

To Teach or Not To Teach

It's been another long week at work. Much scandals and politicking had been arising from various shift in the department organization chart. Good news was that I managed to shift myself up in 2 postion to be directly below my project leader. The bad news is the increase in job responsibilities and projects. Furthermore, I cannot set my mind into changing another job as easily I could. My project leader now is much confident, and dependent on my ability in helping her to sweep up the mess others created for her. To have to dump her the shitty job, I probably have to tell myself to be heartless. ie. That's not really too difficult for me if I should set my mind in that.

Anyway, been recently offered a teaching position in ACS(I). ok.. Cute Boys!! That's the first thing that came into my mind. haha.. Much apprehension after that. I don't want to have my picture appearing on the newspaper to having molested some cute innocent boys. Should i take up the offer then? I am thinking about it seriously as the offer had not been made to me yet. I can't deny the fact that other advantages comes along with being an academic, and the cons being not able to return to the industry ever again.

Life's full of decisions, and one of its kind, and classic it is, would be to make a decision for self gain and satisfaction, as oppose to loyalty. I can stay for my colleagues.. my friends. But as one of my colleague would now say to me, you can stay for them.. but will the stay for you? It's each man for his own in the cruel world. I cannot agree more.

Semplice Simon