Déjà vu

It's been more than 1 complete month since I've last updated my blog. Been real busy studying and planning for more certification courses and exams. Will plough through those details soon. Today's a day of déjà vu. The experience of knowing that this new situation had occurred to me before.

Long story short, Marcus application to Harvard got through!!! Woh... now that's something worth noting. Nothing concrete yet as funding is still in question. It’s the prospects of studying overseas, the prestige of a renowned institution and the excitement of a whole new world of discovery. But wait, I had been through this before. It's like “The Matrix” ‘s kitty cat scene, Déjà vu. Spare you my corniness, but it's not the first time when my boyfriend had to spend months away from me for further studies. Hmm.. Let me see, what's the similarities.?.. A 9 months course.. Crazy rush to get funding.. Planning to settle outstanding issues here, planning to shift your life temporarily to another country, settling administration here and there... Gosh.. It's All Coming Back to me now.( .. Celine Dion!! .. ).. I've done all this before!! While the course of events may seems similar, the way we make it have to be different. Different and perhaps, better also.

That is precisely the advantage I have now. I know what to do and what to plan for. I need to plan for visits, pack food for him, open up all available channels of communication with him (ie the cheapest please!!!). Plan religiously to keep each other updated. I have to plan how to occupy my time, get postcards, mail him stuff etc etc…. There are just endless things to do, to safeguard a relationship over a short period of separation.

Now, Please don't presume I’m saying all things in negativity and bitterness. In fact, I am better prepared this time. I think I can handle this separation better than the last. I do feel sad, excited, worried, happy, and anxious and everything rolled into one complete ball of messy wool. But then, Déjà vu!! I'd felt this before! And it’s not new, and I can handle it better. It’s probably more worrying whether Marcus can handle it. Stepping aside and peering over my shoulder, I feel resigned to the fact that this kind of thing happens in most relationships. We just have to work it out don't we? The dynamics of a relationship can really excites me. Ironically the changes that come along can sadden me too.

Well well, today's Mingzhu's Birthday. Happy Birthday MZ!! Thanks for being my good friend for so many years. Since 1990? Gosh.. that would be more than 1 and a half decade!

Semplice Simon